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Morgan Allen  
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Lets all just slit our wrists

Journal Entry: Tue Apr 22, 2008, 10:46 PM
Doctors give you shit that suppose to work, but its not nearly as much as you need

so this damned uncurable disease keeps spreading to the rest of my body

and I sit here hiding my skin

wondering how the hell am i going to wear a dress to my father's wedding?

am i just going to take the stares and critique?

just like i take the nasty judgment at school?

the ignorant folks announcing

"Herpes"

when thats not nearly as much the pain I feel

I just want to cry

while all I had starts to wear away

because I'm tired

hungry

and I cant feel anything anymore

But the burning sensation

and the itching


I rather have my skin clump up and die too early

Then have a needle stuck in arm twice a week for the rest of my life

making me nauseous and full of fatigue


No wonder my dad hates everyone around him

He has no where else to relieve the pain

I have no where to run

no where to hide

and all the while I struggle with everything else in life





I just can't wait to go home in five more weeks

to the only one I know I can talk to

the only one that truly understands...


Father.



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  • Mood: Shame
  • Reading: God of War
  • Watching: Indiana Jones
  • Drinking: Water

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~Darkfire1313:iconDarkfire1313: Apr 23, 2008, 5:16:02 AM
I won't pretend to understand what you're going through, but I hope you find a way to treat it so you don't have to have shots. And I don't know what to say about people. They're just horribly judgemental sometimes.

-hugs-

--
Katy: OH! Can you speak Japanese?
Me: Umm... Just a little...
Morgan: I can! -starts speaking gibberish-
Me: No, that's Chinese.
Morgan: Really?
Me: No.
~Chaosmyotismon:iconChaosmyotismon: Apr 23, 2008, 10:27:27 AM
I'm confused now. Are you okay Morgan?

--
It’s the fear,
Fear of the darkness,
Growing inside of me
The one day will come to life.
Have to save,
To save my beloved,
There is no escape,
Because my faith is horror and doom.
~kawaiidrpepper:iconkawaiidrpepper: Apr 23, 2008, 7:31:01 PM
Morgan,
do you want me to punch Kentavion in the face tomorrow?

--
D.Rawrrrs :3

Clubbin;

~GBSTA
~caroro:iconcaroro: Apr 23, 2008, 8:11:56 PM
please?

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Bring it.
*ShePaintsWithBlood:iconShePaintsWithBlood: Apr 27, 2008, 1:55:06 AM
Like ~Darkfire1313 I cannot pretend I know how you feel because obviously, I do not. It must be quite painful, I can imagine. No matter what forever you are going to be the same beautiful girl I have known for what...nearly four years I think. Come Autumn I believe. Coming from me I guess maybe it does not mean a whole lot being that friends I guess supposedly are supposed to say things like this. But I mean it all the same. And if you need me to spoon anyone's guts out for you I will. I am noticing people do not mind commenting on looks nowadays, whether it be about how weak someone looks, their weight, their skin, anything. People are disgusting and horrible and will find some idiotic thing to insult or make snide little remarks about that just kind of make you feel...not right. But hell has a special whipping room for the selfish. Keep your head to the heavens, doll and let them crawl around where nothing happens so that they must insult others to get some of their own shine. See, that will get them /nowhere/ in the very end. And while it may be painful, really, you will be the one to stand up when they have long fallen.:blackrose:

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Handsome icon by *helterskellter
~Spirit-of-Cavalia:iconSpirit-of-Cavalia: May 4, 2008, 9:17:50 AM
Omg, I'm so sorry.:( I hope it gets better, or to a manageable state.

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"I still think about it and have goosebumps, you know ... I almost cried at that moment and I thought, how can the guy do that?"
~Normand Latourelle
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